The Longer Ones

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Am I ready?

Interesting question. Well I guess that depends...

For life? Well I don't know. You tell me. I still play my Xbox and Gamecube. I still find time to run around with a doggo or make jokes about poop or even serenade a plant. So I guess I'm still a kid. And there's nothing wrong with that. I love being a kid. I run around, I always ask questions (no matter how weird or unrelated), and to be honest I kinda like it. For the longest time I hate being called immature, because I've been trying not to be... but sometimes I wonder if it's even working. It's probably what most people are still thinking anyway... so I guess I should just swerve right in the skid and call myself a kid. I'll get there though. I'm learning new things. Every day. I'm trying to see other people's perspective, and I'm being more controlled. Plus I'm starting to create more econ/business pick-up lines. So I guess I'm getting there. Let's just hope I like who I turn out to be.

For love? BAHAHAHAHA no. Am I ever really ready for that devilish 4-letter word? no. It's not something I really feel too often anymore anyway. So I don't really bother too much. Instead I just make a lot of best friends. And that's fine! If you analyze how I treat them, I treat them like my best friends so they are my best friends. Sometimes I do form feelings for them though... and that's annoying but I do my best not to act on it. Because... I don't feel like it's something I deserve. Growing up I watch Disney all the time and it's always the princess marrying the prince. I guess I just never really saw myself as that prince. It's all dandy though! I made a lot of really cool best friends and to be honest a lot of times I loved them more than who I actually dated.

For my mission? Heck yeah. I know I might not be ready for life. Being an immature nerd, life is something I'll probably grow into. I know I'm not ready for love. I mean if I love best friends more than girlfriends, then I'm stupid enough to forget the difference. But for this mission I have no doubts. Not anymore. I'm happy and I'm ready. I know who I need to be. I know what I need to say. And whether or not, I'm just an actor in God's heavenly game, I'm ready. I've read and I've practiced and I've felt the truth of it all. I'm probably being a bit meta right now, but I know who I am. I know where I'm going. And I know how I can teach you to know it too.

I'm ready.

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