The Longer Ones

Wednesday, September 15, 2021

A year later

 Hi,

So it's been a year. A lot of things have changed but also not at all. I'd like to think of myself as the same curious kid, though my curiosity did lead me to learn compared to last year. Hmmmm... let's do some big events first, for context.

-I'm engaged and planning to get married this December 18th

-I got an internship offer so I know what I'll do next summer

-I've been home for almost 18 months now

-I'm a junior in the Accounting program for BYU

(in order of importance)


The way that I think is a bit different now. One important thing that I learned was from being in a relationship actually. Loving someone by not acting or doing anything. I feel many times in my life I have the innate compulsion of wanting to fix the problem in front of me. Especially whenever people present problems they're having in their life, my immediate response is okay let's make a plan, What's your goal, and let's create a timeline for you to be successful and to conquer this problem. But most people don't want that though. To be honest, I feel like everyone already knows what they need to do, they just need to come to that realization on their own. That if I was the one who introduces it then it would be rejected since I may be a stranger to them. Well... even to family though... even if I recommend something they have their own agency and I can't bring others to come to my beliefs, regardless of how hard I try. Even if it hurts sometimes... I think the best way to love someone is at times to let them fall.