Whelp guess I gotta get used to that again. I'm not sure what to do now. I applied for some jobs, I'm still reading my scriptures, still memorizing what I need to memorize and remembering what I've done. But wow it's really hitting me. Life is hitting me.
"So how are you feeling?"
Well it's mixed I suppose. Happy that I've confessed and feel better on that inside, but also guilty I'm not in the field. There are so many other things I could be doing right now... proselyting, learning the language, going back to school... but I can't do any of that right now. For the first time (since maybe 7th grade?), everything is slowing down and it's making me feel guilty. I thought it would only slow down in the mission field but even here. Even when I've been released, it's still slow. Until I get back on my feet, it'll be a bit slow... and it's my fault. But with every day that passes I do
"So what's your daily routine?"
Well my new best friend is a broom. Just cleaning some things. Reading books. Watching some TV but not too much (like 2 hrs max). Sleeping. Praying for a job. Playing with a dog. Normal stuff I suppose.
"What're your plans now?"
Whelp currently none at all... Just kidding. I'm preparing and hoping to come back. But for now, let's get a job, let's keep on reading, let's help the fam bam, and let's get to work. I may be home, but I'm still ambitious as ever!